Wednesday, November 4, 2009

Just sad

Do you ever just feel sad? Melancholy, but maybe a bit more? It's not like I don't know why I feel this way...

Dear friends of ours said goodbye to their mom yesterday. She died of leukemia, less than a week after being diagnosed. She was only 61. There is something heart-wrenching about seeing grown men sob.

Illnesses continue. I realized yesterday that Lainie's been coughing for more than 2 months now. And Natalie woke up with her cough intensified and a rattle in her chest. It's not like we haven't been here before. Katie and Maggie educated us on the different kinds of coughs and cough remedies. But I'm sad for my girls, sad that they don't feel well, sad that Lainie is out of breath after walking the stairs.

Money problems. Hell, who doesn't have money problems nowadays. We're better than we were, we still see the light at the end of the tunnel. But I'm tired of being broke. And sad about it.

Work. I'm sad that another project has failed, because higher-ups couldn't or wouldn't make decisions in time and co-workers wouldn't do their part. Why try?

I'm sure tomorrow will be better. Tonight I'll spend some extra snuggly time, reading time, playing time, silly time, with my quartet.

But today, I'm just sad.


Tara said...


Alison said...

Thinking of you, Mama *hugs*